I love my fat

You didn’t expected to hear this, did you?

I can pretend all is perfect, after all I can show you the perfect photographs that will proovemy point and make you even a bit jealous. But that’s not the point.

Nobody is perfect and no body is perfect. Our body is a living organism that gets affected by your conscious, subconscious and physical decisions.

My work is all about the body being completely open and transparent with you about it. That’s why I’m writing this, to point out on the controversial statement. I’m annoyed that I’m not taking action to shape my body in the best way I can, letting it store some fat here and there. The body is not faulty, in fact it is functioning the way it should be. And the simple fact that we can get annoyed about those “imperfections” or “not fitting into the standard” means that our problems are not really problems. Because if you were struggling with some health issues, not feeling well, the last thing you would think about would be that little (sexy for some) fat cushion around your waste.

Don’t be so harsh on yourself. Life is a game where we have to juggle a few things at once. Have compassion towards yourself. See the bigger picture, maybe you were dealing with other issues and the six pack wasn’t in that plan (for now).

Upcoming year already feels promising. Let’s see how much I can do for my best friend, my body.

Nobody cares

Everyone is looking after their own interest. Especially people stuck in the lower energy - obsessed about money, control and possessions. Lately I’ve had a few experiences that slapped me on the face, despite knowing how to protect myself.

They will go as far as you let them, my mom told me. And she’s absolutely right - no-one but you can put and keep your boundaries. No-one but you is concerned about your wellbeing, feelings, and rights. Especially in the business world.

I’m shocked amazed how many young people are still practicing the old model of business behaviour - use the other as much as you can, get the most benefits for yourself, keep pushing until you get what you want to get kicked out. And then, pretend nothing has happened.

Yes, this is exactly what I’ve experienced last week. But it’s not their problem, it’s mine. It’s not their problem they walk over you, it’s you that are letting them do so.

So next time you got this feeling inside that you have to speak up for yourself because something isn’t right or fair for you, make sure you do or you’ll feel the same way.

Do it on time or pay for the results

Have you had situations when your inner guidance is screaming to you to take action and due to your ignorance the outcome backfires in your field? Have you ever dealt with people who take advantage of you and your good heart?

I admire people who speak their mind right there and then. I don’t mean those who blow up ready a fight, but those who precisely and calculatedly measure the situation and put their boundaries right away. After all, there are people who will go as far as you let them. Nobody else knows your boundaries but you. And nobody else can advocate them for you.

I know it all and yet I’ve felt into my traumatised child behaviour again. It’s interesting how just a few years in our upbringing can mark our life in such a profound way that can take us decades to arrange back to normal.

Lesson of the story? - don't leave your donkey in the mud, as they say in Bulgaria. Get clear on your own values and boundaries, and then draw the line for anyone who tries to cross them.

You’ll fail a few times

Before you actually change that deep rooted, harmful pattern of yours.

Self development drowns in stages. First we’re unaware of what is that really deprive us of being our best self. Then comes the acknowledgement of the pattern, followed by desire to change and implementing small changes. Yet we often think that if we’ve seen it and exercised in our brain the desired outcome we want, that we’ve have change the pattern itself. Until Life sends us another test and we fail it.

It hurts isn’t it? All that hard work behind the scenes, all the understanding and self observation to get on the stage of life experience and behave the same as you used to do all those years.

It might take a few times falling on your face until you learn to manage it or, depending how deep it is, find a way to actually switch it around.

Today I had another test and I failed. I feel deprived, angry and annoyed. I knew exactly what I had to do, the voice told me a few times. But I didn’t. Instead I did exactly what I used to do up to now. And I ended up feeling the same as I have tens of ways before.

Until next time, nasty pattern. Hopefully next time the result is in my favour.

it's up to you

You’re the one who is stopping you.

What if the things you think you can’t achieve are the believe patterns installed in you when growing up? We often label ourselves, put our character in a certain box without even considering if what we constantly repeat comes from us or not. It’s the believe that we’re not fit, dyslectic, incapable of achieving our dreams, etc, etc. that causes confusion in our heads. The soul knows there is nothing it can’t achieve, there is nothing it’s not for it if it’s already planted.

Then how to hack our own mind is the real question. With patience, with understanding, by practicing compassion and proven techniques that many professionals have already shared with us.

The monkey mind will continue keeping you save in the well known limiting believes. That’s okay. But it’s up to you to make the difference.